I feel this odd disconnect from most people around me. It’s as though I see things from a completely different perspective that not everyone can even accept, let alone understand. I have empathy for other people, and I feel emotional when it’s appropriate, but in most cases I see interpersonal situations through these severely logical lenses. It’s not that I don’t have feelings, it’s that my natural reaction to nearly every conflict is to use my ‘head’ not my ‘heart’ to create a solution. Usually this ends up perplexing or offending people, and I hate it because I honestly hate hurting other peoples’ feelings. And then I say “I hate hurting people’s feelings”, and then my truly honest friends will remind me of times I have (seemingly) deliberately offended someone, and I remember it and I think to myself how I didn’t think I was getting to them emotionally; because I think that if I were in a confusing situation with another person where my ‘feelings’ were exposed to being hurt, I’d want them to use logic and realism to console me (or at least try to). All I’m saying is I guess I feel like there are people in the small segment of the world that I interact with who probably think I’m a bitch or I am cold and don’t give a shit about anyone else. What’s left unnoticed is that I struggle internally with how to avoid making another person feel sad for a very long time before trying to confront a situation. This of course only results in me reverting back to using the cold, bare logic in my head that filters all my personal thoughts and then spitting them out at people who are emotionally sensitive. This doesn’t make much sense anymore, I just wish people didn’t ‘hate’ me for my unfortunate and commonly misinterpreted attitude about ‘dealing’ with people.