Just come back :(
Getting deep
Like I don’t understand what’s wrong with me? I constantly get sloppy drunk with all my friends and do stupid things to people I care about and ruin friendships I have and just embarrass myself over and over again. And why? I really don’t know, all I know is that if I were sober I would never have any fun. So I act stupid and decide I’m not having fun anymore and then get in my car at midnight and try to drive home and then wake up the next day at 9 hungover as fuck and go to ride Polly. My life is fucking grosssssssssssssss bye don’t read this wtf
it’s 11
I’m not even like drunk and I keep dialing your number waiting to press send thinking of what I can say that will make things alright but not alright in the same way you think it’s alright like alright in the way that I can talk to you, and just touch you for a second, and whine and cry on you like I used to when I was upset and you’d be quiet but in a good way so I felt better. Why can’t I do this? Why can’t I feel balanced without thinking about you? And now I’m listening to deer tick and all I can think about is what it was like to have a person in my life who literally liked everything about me and who would never do anything to “hurt” me. What the fuck is the matter with my brain?
Me: “I’m at a point in my life where I can do whatever I want whenever I want and not care about how anyone else feels….”
Brother: “Haven’t you always been at ‘that point in your life’?”
HI
Let me ask real quick
Why do boys do this thing where like they blow up your phone hard for a solid like 3-4 days and you sit there like ugh go away #busy and then the second they stop texting you you’re like WHAT THE FUCK HELP TEXT TEXT TEXT TEXT but you definitely didn’t even like them? Also this question makes no sense grammatically i’m over it.
ALSO WHY DO BOYS THINK THAT JUST BECAUSE I’M A GIRL I’M GONNA LIKE CRAWL INTO A BALL BEING IN LOVE WITH YOU LIKE AFTER WE HANG OUT ONCE? LIKE……YOU’RE NOT ALL THAT GREAT I HATE MY LIFE HELPSWAG
Today
Ellie and I literally worked until 1:30 after starting at 8….(when we’re supposed to work from like 8:30-12 it’s fine) But we got to play and I cleaned so hard like everywhere and now I have the rest of the day off to do whatever I want aka clean my room eat so much soup play my guitar and sleep away my life ~~ help i love my life?
